I'm beginning again. I'm starting the process all over again, for they say, "Success is not starting and going until you are done, it's more a series of starts and stops. You just have to keep starting until you reach it."
So I am. I am beginning with Yoga on Monday nights and Strength Training on Thursday nights. Two of my friends are joining me, which will help keep us all motivated. One has never worked out seriously in her life, and the other used to be a runner. Regardless, it's going to be nice to have exercise buddies.
I'm not looking at drastically changing my diet right now, until I get in the habit of exercising. I will quietly watch what I eat (portion size and nothing after 8) and splurge with moderation in mind - One cinnamon roll, not two, or three.
I have successfully been cutting out things like soda, refined sugars, and other foods that really aren't good for me, but it's been slow to change my eating habits. I've also been eating smaller meals with food inbetween - an all day grazing.
I am also seeing a therapist on a regular basis - I have for so long used my weight as insulation and protection that for me to lose the weight, I also need to face the fears that put it on in the first place. The psychological burdens are the hardest, and since I've not dealt with those behaviours, then I can't keep the weight off.
Before the wedding, I was 195 - which was pretty good for me as I had maintained that for several months without serious exercise. Then the stress of the wedding, not sleeping well, and dealing with relatives hit, and the last month before the wedding, I packed on 10 pounds. Not Good.
My current stats:
Weight (from Doc's office): 212
Weight (my scale at 8:00 a.m.): 206
Pant size: 18
Shirt Size: L or XL, depending on cut
To drop to a size 12 pant, and somewhere in the 150/160 weight range.
There it is, and we begin again.